I write about forgetting and remembering.
My favorite narrative arc goes like this: “Caroline forgets that everyone, including her, is irreversibly, unconditionally loved. Myriad struggles ensue. Then – jubilation! – she remembers.”
It’s funny how often I forget basic spiritual truths. For example, I have a tendency to look for peace and contentment everywhere except where I can actually find them: within.
I persist in thinking that if I can just get everything under control … if I can get all my ducks in a row … then I will be happy.
You’d think I’d have figured out that my plans are not the be-all and end-all. After all, my very best experiences and relationships have taken me completely by surprise.
But no. I have amnesia, and I want to drive the bus.
Light-bulb moment at TEDxBirmingham’s 2016 All Star Salon; photo credit Kate Rexrode Smith Photography. Looking for a virtual resume, including a more traditional bio? Visit CarolineMcGraw.com.
Want to know what I’m like? I am like Dory from Finding Nemo. I have a kind heart, a lot of enthusiasm, and a short-term memory issue.
As such, I keep asking Life if She and I could just pull over and swap places, if I could please be in control of everything for a bit.
Fortunately, Life knows me better than I know myself. When I try to take Her seat, She doesn’t get offended.
Instead, She just smiles at me with infinite kindness. She listens as I rant about how things should be.
She waits for me to remember what I already know, which is that She’s Love, and She’s taking me – taking all of us – home.
Won’t you join us on the journey?
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