10 Reasons to Give Thanks, 10 Days Before Thanksgiving

It’s that time of year.

Mom, thanks for making me such a lovely princess costume for my very first ‘dress up’ Halloween!

We’re putting away the Halloween costumes (or, in my case, enjoying photos of past ensembles!) and making plans for the upcoming winter holidays. We’re hitting the road and opening our doors. And in the midst of it all, we’re giving thanks.

At the moment, I’m thankful to have 3 guest posts (From Helplessness to Courage: A Sister’s Story at Autism Speaks; Love Takes the Lead: A Story of Struggle at The Bold Life; Becoming Whole at My Autism My Voice) up this week.

And I’m thankful that, even though this week has been a difficult one for Willie, our parents, and me, it has been a time of grace as well.

& I am tremendously grateful for you.

Your readership. Your time. Your lovely, inspiring comments. The ways in which you share from the heart.

And sharing from the heart is what my favorite writers do best. In honor of the coming holiday, I want to share with you a (short, incomplete) list of writers who have inspired me this year.

You can peruse these posts over the next 2 weeks, since A Wish Come Clear will be taking a brief break for the holiday. (Posts resume on Monday, December 3, 2012.)

The writers listed below share stories of special needs with grace, power, and beauty, and I am so glad that they have the courage to do so.

I am thankful for (in no particular order) …

1. Martha Beck, author of Expecting Adam: A Story of Birth, Rebirth, and Everyday Magic (among others)

Recommended Read: Receive with an Open Heart: Giving and Accepting Gifts of Real Love

2.  Kerry Magro, fellow columnist at Autism After 16 and all-around amazing human being

Recommended Read: Goodbye, Hello

3. Priscilla Gilman, author of The Anti-Romantic Child: A Story of Unexpected Joy

Recommended Read: Ernie and Bert’s Mother

4. Kelle Hampton, author of Bloom: Finding Beauty in the Unexpected.

Recommended Read: Tea with Milk and Honey

5. Rachel Simon, author of The Story of Beautiful Girl and Riding the Bus with my Sister (and others)

Recommended Read: Chapter One, The Story of Beautiful Girl

6. Amy Julia Becker, author of A Good & Perfect Gift: Faith, Expectations, and a Little Girl Named Penny

Recommended Read: Ann Coulter, The R-Word, and John Franklin Stephens’ Wise Response

7. Rob Gorski, who blogs at Lost and Tired

Recommended Read: Never Take for Granted

8. Gillian Marchenko, author of a forthcoming book about Motherhood, Down Syndrome, & Surprising Beauty

Recommended Read: Tutu Much

9. Lana Rush, who blogs at Along Came the Bird

Recommended Read: Oh Joy!

10. Ellen Stumbo, who blogs at These Broken Vases

Recommended Read: Defining Moment {A Guest Post}

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What are you thankful for this week? Join the conversation in the comments below!

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Warning: Relational Acceptance May Lead To Surrender, Trust + Tripping Over Joy

If you’ve been (happily) married, you know it’s practically impossible to choose a favorite photograph from your wedding day. Consider:  the people you love best, all gathered together. You and your beloved, both radiant with happiness. A beautiful location, a day of dancing, singing, laughter and celebration.

That said, I won’t choose a favorite…but I will share with you a photograph that definitely makes the top 10.

This is a photo of me, my husband Jonathan and Leo*, our friend and former housemate.

Aside from the miraculous sunshine (it had rained for days on end prior to our big day), the happy faces and the formal wear, this picture speaks to me about acceptance. About what happens when you are open to the strange, beautiful life before you.

Letting Go Of Expectations

As you’ll recall, when I arrived at L’Arche DC in 2007, I wasn’t too thrilled at the thought of accompanying Leo. In fact, I felt frustration and fear, as though I’d been assigned to the ‘wrong’ person. We didn’t seem to have much in common, and we didn’t expect the pairing.

What you may not know is that I felt the same way about Jonathan when he moved into L’Arche in 2008.

In this picture, I’m sitting with two people I cannot imagine living without. Yet when I first met Leo (and later, Jonathan), I thought, “How is this ever going to work?!”

In both cases, I had to let go of expectations. I had to let go of the assumption that– just because these men were quiet and hard to get to know– they disliked me. I had to let go of the belief that I’d connect immediately with the person I accompanied (and the person I married!)

Choosing Your WorthinessTrust vs Fear

In hindsight, I didn’t connect with Leo and Jonathan initially because I was intimidated. In Leo’s case, the idea of our accompaniment intimidated me; in Jonathan’s, the idea of our coexistence. I felt as though I’d never measure up to their standards…that I’d never be enough for them.

And yet, through small acts of kindness and patience, those relationships grew. And I came to realize:  my fear of not being enough was coming from inside me. It came from old hurts and rejections. The fear was clouding my judgment, distancing me from the people who actually did want to know me.

I remember the day I started to look at Leo differently. It was L’Arche’s annual Beach Day in 2007, and Leo had brought a book for us to read. We’d discovered reading as a point of common ground, and I was determined to read until we’d built a small bridge across the divide between us. He was quiet and attentive as we turned page after page of historical text. I started to feel a bit more at ease, as Leo seemed much less intimidating when he was listening to me read. I thought, “Maybe. Maybe we can do this.”

That first maybe moved us forward into more shared moments. Seeing Mamma Mia live onstage. Traveling to Springfield, Illinois and climbing over 100 stairs in the Dana-Thomas House. Moment upon moment, until the point when I couldn’t imagine my wedding day without him there.

I also remember the day I chose to look at Jonathan differently. For months after he arrived at L’Arche, I thought, “He’s so together. So smart. (So handsome.) He’d never want to be my friend.”

Then, after a few pleasant interactions (and one hilarious incident involving a spot-on Alvin and the Chipmunks impersonation), I thought:  “Maybe I was wrong. He has a sense of humor. He’s a human being. And it seems like maybe he doesn’t not want to be my friend!”

Again, the maybe. The little wiggle of doubt, the little space that made room for faith.

I like the way Brene Brown defines faith in The Gifts of Imperfection:  “Faith is a place of mystery, where we find the courage to believe in what we cannot see and the strength to let go of our fear of uncertainty.”

I had to take a step outside of fear– a step into trust— before Jonathan and I could move forward. It wasn’t a big step, but it was all I could manage at the time.

That step helped get us where we needed to go. As it turned out, Jonathan had cared for me all along. He had lent me books, helped me on routines, listened when I needed to talk…but it took me a long time to understand what he was doing, because I didn’t interpret his behavior as romantic interest.

Jonathan had been taking his time, making sure we had a solid foundation on which to build a relationship. He had been waiting, patiently, for the day when I’d take a step of faith towards him.

Surrender + Tripping Over Joy

Friends and family often ask me, “How do you come up with ideas for posts week after week?” I make sure to connect with people and live tenaciously, but my ideas also come from writers who have dared to be vulnerable, to share the real stories of their lives.

Case in point:  this week, after reading an amazing birth story, I had to share my own journey of acceptance. (When you read it, have Kleenex handy.) It’s the story of Kelle Hampton giving birth to Nella Cordelia, a beautiful baby born (unexpectedly) with Down Syndrome.

I love this story for its honesty, for the love you can feel as you read. It reminds you that the unexpected can be devastating…and it can be an open door.

As Kelle Hampton puts it, “My Nella…my beautiful perfect yet unique girl will be my constant reminder in life. That it’s not about wood floors [getting what we think we want]. No, life is about love and truly experiencing the beauty we are meant to know.”

When I look at the photo from my wedding day, it all comes back to me:  the miracle that moved us all from where we were to where we are now, the beauty we were meant to know. Are there hard days? Of course. But I wouldn’t trade them for anything.

It’s a funny thing, life. You really, really never know who you will come to love, and who will come to love you back. Your acceptance of the people in your life may lead you to surrender your assumptions and your preconceived ideas about what your life was ‘supposed’ to look like.

Be forewarned:  in this state of surrender, you are always, always at risk of tripping over joy.

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“What is the difference
Between your experience of Existence
And that of a saint?

The saint knows
That the spiritual path
Is a sublime chess game with God

And that the Beloved
Has just made such a Fantastic Move

That the saint is now continually
Tripping over Joy
And bursting out in Laughter
And saying, “I Surrender!”

Whereas, my dear,
I’m afraid you still think

You have a thousand serious moves.”

~Hafiz, “Tripping Over Joy”

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When have you been utterly surprised by a person or a relationship?

Tell me in the comments!

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Further Reading:

S-O-S Best of the Best, Edition 11:  Family Life – Fun, Loving & Special

*Names have been changed.